Living my life

Many a time, i convinced myself im doing all these(how my life is now) for my own future and benefits, but sadly to realise i've been living up to others' expectations of me all the while. I want my mum to see my success at every phase of my life. I want my friends to know that i own my life to pure hardwork and perseverance, though at times feelg all sluggish. I want the teachers to feel that they've not wasted their time on me. At the end of the day, i just want to achieve my dreams, big enough for me to remember this lifetime, it's fruitful though challenging. I placed a big portion of my life studying, and dedicates little to commitments. The latter is as important, but i dont want to end up screwing the former. It's difficult and i've not one time been able to enjoy the best of both worlds. I asked myself profusely, "Where do i really stand?" because its heartwrenchg to hear your subject tutor informing you of your class's results been placed at the 5th from the back, when you know you've already went all out for the tests. Its not easy questg for people who own big dreams like me. If they dont, they'll bring me down. I need more discipline people around me, yet having the need to save my own people. I need more complementary influence, not one that allows procrastination to set in. May all be well in the days to come.

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